Infertile pregnancy is terrifying

I read something a few years back that speculated that JLo was TTC but having “issues”.  There were several sightings at infertility clinics and quotes from publicists close friends.  I have no idea if these rumors actually carry any weight, but in my mind, I have grown fonder of JLo because of our common connection (whether it be true or not).  I will say this.  I have paid far more attention to her mannerisms since the article and have noticed she truly does have many signs of an infertile:

  • avoiding the baby questions with a pained smile
  • a seemingly strong exterior about such topics with an overwhelmingly sad interior that she gets to hide so luckily behind PR and chalk up to being a diva
  • the insane attention she has withstood about the subject for years and the lack of any concrete evidence to the contrary other then a stellar figure that never changed (until now of course)
  • the sad look of “why not me” when complementing the interviewer at hand about her baby bump
  • the “we really want to have kids someday when we’re ready” practically tattooed to her head as a testament to her marriage
  • the subtle break from her career that she has undergone…..relaxing to have less stress?  too much to do during cycles perhaps?

All of us infertils know the signs.  And now…pregnancy rumors 2.0.  The gigantic mu mu’s she dawns these days.  And the oddly frequent toddler appearances she’s making.  The relaxing calm that has washed over her face and erased the underlying stress of infertility.  The “ahhhhh” glow.  So why not tell anybody??  Well that’s so damn easy.  If JLo is – in fact – infertile, chances are she’s had losses or pain that admits her to our VIP level of the infertility club – the absolutely pessimistic I’ll-believe-it-when-it-says-hello-to-me club.  Of course she wont admit it.  She is probably having a hard time saying it out loud for fear it will suddenly go away.  I get this.  I absolutely get it.

You go JLo.  I am so wildly happy for you.  I wont even say it out loud for fear I might jinx it.  You owe me no explanation for your secrets.  O, but don’t think I’m not jealous as all get out.  O I am.  I am.


7 Responses to “Infertile pregnancy is terrifying”

  1. 1 Orodemniades October 11, 2007 at 1:51 pm

    I swear to god that I saw her in February, on some red carpet somewhere, smiling hugely and telling the interviewer that yes, She was so happy to be pregnant.

    I *know* I saw it – and then she seemed to disappear off the radar.

    Until now. I wish she’d just come out and say it.

  2. 2 geohde October 11, 2007 at 1:56 pm

    Damn. Good point. I never thought of it that way.

    I just saw her pregnant, saying nothing about it and thought ‘bitch’.

    But you made me think. I never told anyone I was pregnant, even though I really should have. Even past the ‘danger’ time, I just couldn’t fess up. I couldn’t believe that it might finally be happening.

    It all went pear shaped, of course, but that’s irrelevant to the fact that I just couldn’t spill the beans.


  3. 3 Eviena October 11, 2007 at 4:58 pm

    Yes, I think infertile pregnancy is very terrifying. After years and years of being infertile and suddenly finding oneself pregnant… I don’t know what it will feel like. I really can’t imagine…

    But I really want to experience it, eventhough it is scary. The 2ww is torturous enough; a 40 week wait, oh wow. It’s like threading on water everyday. Living life everyday hoping the baby will be safe till the delivery day. And then hoping that the baby will be healthy and then, more and more worries and hopes for the baby…

    Ahhh life ain’t easy, huh.

  4. 4 katarinajellybeana October 12, 2007 at 5:53 am

    I know I’ve seen other pictures of her where she has clearly been pregnant. Her losses must have been devistating.

    I hope she finds a way to be at ease with it. I hear she’s carrying twins this time.

  5. 5 sassy October 12, 2007 at 6:16 am

    I didn’t know this about JLo. I suddenly find myself liking her more. Funny, eh?

  6. 6 kittenroar5 October 14, 2007 at 8:03 pm

    Interesting. I think I like her a little bit more too.

  1. 1 Mark and I are “expecting” « B a b y B o u n d Trackback on November 9, 2007 at 1:56 pm

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